A bet, a BDSM initiation
Following a bet, Francis is introduced to BDSM by Inanna Justice
The bet
One of my biggest faults is keeping my word. But is it really a fault: when I make a bet that I lose, the result can be unpleasant...
My friend Jean-Claude is a libertine, so he knows all the best spots in Paris, and he's aware of my curiosity about BDSM.
Last Thursday we had lunch together at Circonstance, Rue du Faubourg Montmartre, a bistro where you know you won't be disappointed either by the welcome or by what you find on the inventive plates.
"So Francis where are you in your search for a Sex friend?"
"It's not easy, because as soon as we start a relationship of this kind, I realize that the chosen one quickly deviates from her initial intentions and asks me to have more than just sex. No matter how many times I tell her I'm not a fan of Vanilla sex and that she won't accept my fantasies, such as playing submissive. She's clinging to the idea that our relationship shouldn't remain a sex friend but evolve into a loving relationship.
"Apart from your problem with your female sex friends, do you still have this fantasy of playing the submissive Françis? I dare you to realize it: I know you: you're not capable of it.
"I'm not capable of it you're wrong... I'm not going to put myself in the hands of a sadist who will mock my fantasy and not let me go without visible marks of his initiation."
"Are you making a bet with me? I know the perfect mistress for your 1er that will make you love being a submissive. But I won't insist because you won't take my advice and you won't even have the courage to meet her... "
"I bet I can do it and I accept your bet. Will you introduce me?"
Video appointment with Inanna Justice
That's how I met Inanna Justice... At Jean-Claude's request, after he'd had contact with her concerning me, I logged on to her site. Inanna Justice was shown wearing a sexy red leather skirt, high heels and a riding crop.
When I looked at her site, I found it remarkable both for the photos and for the explanations given by Inanna Justice in her presentation, especially on her motivations for engaging in this activity. What she wants with her submissives is a relationship based on respect and kindness. I was both reassured by the seriousness of her site and frightened by the sight of the whips lining one wall of her dungeon and the photos of some of her submissives.
Her conclusion was that she believed this initiation was a source of value (and pain) and would be unforgettable for the participants.
So I decided to contact her. To do so, I first had to fill in a detailed questionnaire aimed at clarifying my choices and avoiding mistakes in my request. For example, I declared that I was a valued submissive and not a man looking for humiliation... I also had to indicate what I wanted in the way of Constraint Games. I chose from a long list what I thought I could handle: soft impact play and hand spanking.
After filling in the questionnaire, I was able to write a message asking for an appointment.
The next step was to pay a deposit on the offering proposed in return for the initiation session. She told me that for an initiation I had to choose a duration of 1 H 30 and have a video interview with her of at least 15 minutes to clarify certain points and ask her the questions I wanted.
The day and time of this meeting have been set. The initiation session is scheduled for the following Sunday.
At precisely 10.30 a.m., thanks to the magic of the internet and the link she had sent me, here we were, face to face, chatting. Inanna appeared to be very simple and elegant. Smiling, she asks me how I see our meeting, what I want and what I'm afraid of. It's hard for me to imagine that such a pleasant, smiling woman could enjoy beating me... She advises me to book a 1.5-hour session, which will give me a full idea of what it means to be submissive to your mistress and introduce me to the basics of BDSM.
She insists that it's a unique experience that I'll remember for the rest of my life. Concerned, I ask her if I can stand being whipped and beaten for 90 minutes? Inanna Justice replies that she has no desire to disgust me, and that as this is her first experience, she'll know how to measure her blows.
I ask her to tell me what I'm supposed to wear when I enter her dungeon: she replies completely naked... I have a moment of panic: I'm really going to undergo a harsh and humiliating initiation.
Not really reassured, desire outweighs fear, I agree to make an appointment for this session and the terms of my offering are fixed. I'll pay for it, and then the day before the appointment, after tomorrow Saturday, I'll receive a message giving me the address where I'll have to go on Sunday at 2 p.m.
I receive the address, which is in the 20th arrondissement of Paris, and after a quiet evening I fall asleep peacefully after watching a film on the Internet.
After a restless sleep, I get ready for the 2 p.m. appointment and once again panic at not knowing what to expect. I get in my car at 1 p.m. to go to my appointment.
Arrival at the initiation rendezvous
It's Sunday and I find a parking space easily enough. The building I'm going to is ordinary: a small door in a narrow facade. I'm so scared I feel like running away, but at exactly 2 p.m. my phone rings and Inanna Justice gives me the door code and asks me to go upstairs. Once upstairs, the door is opened and I enter Inanna Justice's lair...
"At last you're here in the flesh. Come in and sit down: it's a hard climb." She offers me a glass of water.
Inanna looks very sexy in her short red skirt and sexy low-cut top. She's wearing make-up and her red mouth fascinates me. I look around at where we are: a small living room overlooking a kitchen at the back. We're sitting on a corner sofa. Her calm and kindness reassure me.
I dare to ask: "Is what you're going to do your business, in addition to something that gives you pleasure?"
"Yes, Françis, I'm sadistic and I'd like to make you suffer, whereas in everyday life I'm the gentlest of women. I will derive pleasure and even enjoyment from whipping you... Now go and remove your clothes in the bathroom, keeping only your underwear on, and call me Madame and not Inanna".
I go into the small but comfortable bathroom, then sheepishly return to find her in her underpants.
1 hour 30 of initiation
Madame looks me up and down and opens a door for me to enter another room furnished with a large bed and some sort of low cabinet like a prie dieu. There's also a bar attached to the ceiling and a collection of whips against the wall and "Raise your arms and cross your hands over your head" cupboards.
She circles me, touches me with her body, strokes my back, puts her head against my neck and suddenly slaps my buttocks, then pinches and twists my breast. I tell her it hurts.
"Of course, it's done on purpose" and she pinches them harder and harder: I scream and she has a sardonic smile as she continues to pinch my breast tips to which she attaches two clamps that hurt me a lot...
She's always circling me, giving me little caresses and light rubs with her body. Her skin is soft and warm and I love her touch. When she senses my pleasure, she spanks my thighs energetically and continues to circle me, alternating smiling caresses and slaps. Suddenly she tells me to lower my arms and rips off my panties - I'm naked... and really in her hands.
"Come along now. I'll tie you up and we'll get down to business.
She has me kneel on her strange piece of furniture, hands forward on two planks, feet pulled back and thighs open. She ties my ankles, knees and hands to the boards in front of me, and a wide belt immobilizes my back. She generously places a cushion under my head for comfort.
"I'm now going to whip you, but I'll show you each time which whip I'm going to use... To help you bear the pain you need to control your breathing: breathe calmly and normally. If you're in pain, you can scream - I don't mind, on the contrary. I'll give you the safety words: Green everything's fine. Orange: hit less hard. Red stop the impact exercise immediately...".
I can tell you that I don't feel at all reassured.
"To warm you up I'll start with a couple of suede swifts that aren't too painful.
Inanna hits me with both swifts at the same time, crossing strokes. I'm surprised not to feel any pain and even to find this first volley pleasant.
She then shows me two leather-strapped swiftlets and starts hitting me with cross strokes, faster and harder. I endure, but groans escape me as I feel great pain.
"Well you put up with it, that's good. Now look: I'm going to use braided leather strap swifts.
Although the blows are measured, I cry out in pain between each strike and hope she'll stop. I look at her and she has a delighted smile: she's obviously enjoying whipping me and hurting me.
We take a break and she shows me a kind of wooden board with a handle she calls a Paddle: "You're in for a good spanking, which you asked for, by the way".
She hits me on the buttocks, then on the thighs, then on the buttocks again, without me even guessing where the next blow will land. The sound of impact is like a sharp slap on the skin and the pain, bearable at first, increases with the number of blows. I start screaming louder and louder. Finally, after what seemed an interminable time, the spanking stopped: my thighs and buttocks were cooking.
Madame then shows me a riding crop which she whistles and hits a piece of furniture so that I can hear the very sharp impact. She strokes my back with her whip and suddenly hits the inside of both my feet with one blow: I scream, the pain is so great... Then she whips my buttocks and thighs energetically: I scream with each blow and twist in my bonds. Finally she stops.
Inanna Justice and her dildo belt
Inanna sits down next to me and twists my bursa: I moan. She then uses a very large, long vibrator along my penis and bursa: the sensation is very pleasant and gives me real pleasure. At the same time, she pinches and squeezes my genitals. It's a mixture of pain and pleasure that shakes me and this moment lasts a long time.
Then she puts on a glove and gently enters a finger into my anus. No one has ever done this to me and the sensation is so pleasant that I relax. She takes the opportunity to push it in further. I tell her it's my first time and that I plan to ask my sex friend to repeat the experience. On her website she talked about her dildo collection. I ask her if she has one.
"Of course. I understand you don't dare admit it but you want me to use it on you I'm going to use a dildo on my belt with a narrow diameter compared to a normal sex and I'll stop pushing it in when you say so".
I'm still attached and dying for the experience. I feel I can trust her. She puts on her dildo belt and after preparing my anus she gently forces her way in and I feel an unknown pleasure as she pushes her dildo in. Halfway through the dildo I ask her to stop. The pleasure I feel is so strong that I can feel myself coming.
"And you Madame did you like it?"
"I loved it and for you it's a second initiation "
Hanging from a beam by chains
Madame unties me and places me under the beam that crosses the room. My wrists are caught in bracelets and suspended by two chains from the beam. I'm standing naked with my arms in the air, feeling totally at her mercy.
Madame seems satisfied with my position and turns around me, smiling and stroking my back with leather straps that I can see are part of a whip that scares the hell out of me.
Calmly, she stands in front of me, looking me in the eyes, and lacerates me one blow after another, seemingly satisfied with the screams I let out with each impact.
The ordeal finally stops, and she courteously shows me a long badine and a whip with a long wick, which I've read can leave marks on the points of impact and cause unbearable pain. She asks me to choose one of the two "I choose the badine Madame".
Inanna steps back in front of me and whistles her dagger close to my body. I tense up in anticipation of her bite. After a few simulations, she hits me. I scream as the brief pain is searing. Delighted with her effect, she jabs me several times and I bite myself to keep from screaming "orange".
"Well, let's finish your initiation with a little game: I love playing with my submissives.
Against the wall in front of me she places two different swifts, the riding crop, the multi-strap whip, the badine and the long-handled whip with a long strap ending in a knot that wraps around the body on impact.
"Francis, you have 6 different whips in front of you. I'll take dice and throw them twice: the first number will indicate the whip I'll use. The second number will indicate the number of strokes I'm going to apply, but this time without holding back. Are you ready? This is going to hurt.
I'm ready because I want to overcome this last test... The dice decide that it will be the whip with several straps and chance decides that it will be 8 strokes...
"Are you ready? You're going to count the blows, it'll be easier to bear".
I stiffen. Inanna Justice steps back and slaps me hard on the back, buttocks and thighs. I count the blows but manage not to scream this time. I can't feel the pain any more... By the 8th blow, I'm even wishing there was a ninth...
Madame seems delighted to have been able to trap me as hard as she wanted thanks to her "game".
I think my initiation was a success.
After getting dressed, Inanna sits me down in the entrance hall, offers me a drink and asks me what I think.
End of my afternoon at Inanna Justice
"I have to admit that, just as you said it would be, it was an unforgettable experience that I'll remember for the rest of my life. It was also a discovery that pleasure could come from pain. In the end, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, and I'm proud to have held out. And you, Madame, did you enjoy it?
"I told you I'm sadistic and I loved making you suffer by making you feel terrorized but hitting you in moderation as I promised you for an initiation".
I leave the premises and can tell Jean Claude that I've won my bet. ... My problem is that I'm wondering if I'm not going to ask Inanna Justice to come back to her place for another Domination session...