Probing deep...

A testimonial a little different from the others... A friend's story after an afternoon at my place. Visit the link to his website. Feel free to read all his writings!

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Probing deep...

Rather than telling you about the session and the sensations I experienced, I'd rather tell you about the great professionalism of a Domina pro, and especially the one who did me the honor of inviting me to a session.

I have to admit I was bluffed and a lot of things and questions are still running around in my little head, many people know it and she knows it too, I've never hidden from her, the pros I have a bit of trouble with...

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I'm a big collector of toys, especially steel ones. I love their curves, their sobriety and their elegance, and I own several of them, especially for prostate pleasure. As soon as I saw the urethral probes, I was immediately attracted, so I ordered some for my little collection and of course I quickly wanted to use them. I was aware that this is not a harmless practice, that there are risks of accidents and also of infection.

I made a photo of my probes which I posted on various networks, I was looking for someone who could teach me and guide me, I was hoping that a couple would offer, Madame and I, she guiding me for the pleasure of her submissive, I like playing with couples.

On tweeter a professional dominatrix I know commented on my photo. She invited me to discover this practice.

Wow, I was flattered and delighted, it was quite a risk she was taking. I jumped at the chance. I'd known her for a while when I met her, she wasn't a professional yet, but she's been practicing for many years, and I know her way of playing. That's probably why I didn't hesitate, I had complete confidence in her and, most importantly, I knew we'd get along well.

She had two or three recipients in mind, but I never asked her any questions about them, never imposed a choice. Yes, I was worried, sometimes there are bodies you can reject, bodies you can't touch. Personally, I have a real problem with muscle, I have a lot of trouble touching a concrete body. I don't like chocolate bars (smile).

It took a few months before I was able to live this experience, I told myself I would never be able to practice... the confinement went that way...

I couldn't stand it any longer and was tempted to do it alone. A submissive on wyylde who'd like to meet me posted photos of probes with the comment "who for my first?"

My first reaction was "he's crazy".

Why crazy... because I think he could come across any pseudo Domina assuring him that she has mastered the practice and ultimately could give him a bad experience, and even more so on a libertine site with followers not at all specialized in these games.

I'm a reasonable person, so even though I had an itch, I didn't propose.

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It's been almost two months since we came out of confinement, and we've finally found a date.

The big day is getting closer and closer, and I'm starting to feel anxious. There are so many questions and feelings that my brain is in knots. My first worry is what if I were to faint.... It's something that could happen - there's a medical side to this practice, and we're not all capable of playing doctor, let alone urologist.

Secondly, I was afraid of feeling "dirty" by taking part in a paid session.... Professional Dominas are sex workers, and inevitably associated with prostitution. As far as I'm concerned, I prefer to keep the two separate, and even more so since I attended a session. For me, the prostitute is selling her body, she's being used, while the Domina is selling a service and, above all, skills and know-how that are not available to everyone. There's no sexual relationship between her and her subject, and just because she touches a man's body, sex or ass, that doesn't make her a prostitute, otherwise nurses, physiotherapists, doctors would be prostitutes too... But I still had this apprehension...

I was also afraid of not being able to touch him, I very rarely play, even in more SM games like impacts, I need to have a real connection with my partner, so getting to touch the cock of a guy I don't know.... It was far from easy.... I convinced myself it was like training to be a nurse (laughs).

My fourth worry was that I would break down and collapse, I should have discovered the probes with someone important to me, I had projected myself a lot into this moment and it never happened, in the end I don't regret it, even guided by an experienced subject I would have made a lot of mistakes especially when it came to hygiene.

And the fifth, if you have to take on the role of Domina sévère, is going to be complicated... D/s is really not my thing....

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I slept very little, getting up at 5am, I can't tell you the state I was in since the morning....

I arrive an hour early, so I can see all the preparations for the session.

I loved this moment, I recorded everything, I was bluffed, I thought I was a maniac of hygiene and finally not enough. For example, I used to wash my toys with soap and hot water, and then simply rub alcohol on them with a cotton pad to disinfect them. She soaks hers for a good 20 minutes in steraneos, the disinfectant used in hospitals to clean instruments, and she doesn't skimp on the product; she must use a liter each time. There's also a roll of disposable medical drape, disposable latex gloves, and sterile lubricant bought in individual pods.

I showed her the tube I'd bought, and she explained to me that once it's opened, sterility is no longer guaranteed, and that if it's not kept in good conditions, the lubricant could go bad without you noticing. perfect hygiene. When I got home, I looked at the prices on the internet. I knew some of them, like those for gloves, but it's all very expensive, and you don't necessarily realize it.

Once all the equipment is perfectly sanitized, she places it on a table, which she has bleached and rinsed well beforehand. The probes are placed on a tray, as I would certainly have made the mistake of putting them back in their covers.... She puts a kind of vase filled with disinfectant on the table, and explains that it's for storing probes that have already been used, so that there's no risk of making a mistake and reusing a "dirty" probe, which I wouldn't have thought of either.

The massage table is also disinfected, she tells me, "I know it spoils it, but hygiene comes first and the day it becomes unusable I'll buy another one", she takes out the roll of medical sheet, the same as at the gynecologist's, and covers the massage table, then takes out a clean sheet to make it look nicer. Then she mops the floor, and yes, a Domina also mops the floor. Everything is thought out and done to make it as healthy as possible.

When everything's ready, it's time for her to get changed. She thinks about what she was wearing the last time he was here, and explains to me that it's important to vary your outfits, which I can easily understand (smile). He'll be back soon, and we'll wash our hands thoroughly. Which we do several times just before starting the session.

He arrives, says hello, kisses her on the cheek like two friends, offers me his hand, he's relaxed. I don't really know what to do with myself, I'm a bit embarrassed, so we have a drink, Perrier but no alcohol, which suits me fine, I avoid drinking when I'm playing, especially if I'm not in control. We chat and I quickly feel at ease. He's not at all submissive and not at all into BDSM, he just likes these practices. Inanna has chosen the perfect model.

I think it's great, and I think we should really separate these practices from BDSM, after all, why should they only be reserved for submissives?

We chat for a good half-hour, and the session is about to begin. Before taking a shower, he hands Inanna an envelope, his offering (offering is the term used for payment, a bit like a fee), I must have been a little cold, he replies Don't worry, I know, it's just an invitation to my restaurant to thank you, I'm very embarrassed, it's rather up to me to show my gratitude for the gift he's giving me by serving as his guinea pig, and in my games it's often me who offers my partners a drink to thank them for their trust, I don't want to offend him, I put the envelope away discreetly.

I thanked Inanna myself in another way, and if I'd been able to afford a session I would have done so, he simply had the same intention as me. Yes, I know I've got a real problem with that, I've got to learn to accept that someone can invite me or buy me a drink without me feeling indebted or obliged to... that must be my feminist side (laughs).

He's showered, we've washed our hands once more, and the session can begin. Inanna starts by stroking his body to relax him, he closes his eyes, I don't know whether to participate, I don't dare move. I move closer and start to make the same gestures, he has the beginnings of an erection, Inanna points it out to him, she waits for it to subside, both explain that it depends on the person, but that to insert the first probes it's better if there's no erection, otherwise it could be painful, there's a tricky passage at about 2cm, just at the entrance to the urethral meatus. It's a bit like a ring that you have to let open, as erection would make it narrower (I'm translating as I understood it).

Well, I have to stop watching porn videos to learn, and they've been doing it for a long time, he has 20 years of practice, so between their advice and porn, I'm going to take their advice?

Inanna puts on gloves and puts lubricant on them, explaining to me that I shouldn't use the pod directly to avoid contamination (a mistake I made later when she allowed me to insert my first catheter, but she caught me immediately and now I've got it well in mind). She grabs the first catheter, a rosebud, and coats it with lubricant. I still have so much to learn....

At first I continue to caress his chest and observe, I start to ask questions, I pull myself together, I've got to keep quiet, he's come for a session, I don't want to stop him from taking off and if I don't stop talking he might not be relaxed. Well, if I'm going to keep quiet, I've got to keep myself busy, I know he's also very anal and I love rummaging around, plus it's been a long time since I've done it and I'm kind of craving it.... I look at Inanna and wave to her for approval.

I take some lubricant gloves and start to dilate him. He says it's the first time two women have been involved with him, the first time both his orifices have been stimulated and dilated at the same time. It didn't take long for my brain to react to the information. I was thrilled at the idea of letting him experience this double penetration, and it was a first for me too, so I forgot about the probes for a while.

Once Inanna had dilated it properly, she said to me, "Now it's your turn. I throw my gloves in the garbage can and go to wash my hands before taking another pair (I remembered all the hygiene instructions she'd given me), he already has a catheter in his urinary tract and I have to insert a second one, She explains that I don't have to push, that I just have to hold it upright, that it will slide into the penis on its own, a bit like being sucked in, that the second probe will be positioned just above the first, and that I shouldn't try to push it in any further.

Inanna replaces me on the anal side, keeping an eye on my every move. I'm very comfortable, they've both given me confidence, I play a bit, come and go, the probes are thin but I can feel them through the skin, which would certainly not have been possible with an erect penis, She explains that I have to take them out one by one and in the right order. In the end, when you see several probes in one tube, it's not as impressive as it looks. It's time to get down to business, Inanna takes her place and I take mine.

She picks up a curved probe, the shaft is made entirely of steel balls, the shaft finds its way by itself, it naturally turns a quarter to position itself, Inanna plays with the probe, I gently finger her anal walls, I caress them and then the shock, I hadn't felt the previous probes but this one is quite special, Maybe it's because it's curved at the end, I can feel the balls wiggling against my fingertips, I love it, I forget to look for his prostate, I play with the balls on his anal wall, his skin at this point is solicited on both sides, on one side by the probe and on the other by my finger, I found out later that he loved this sensation...

It's a bit of a mess in my head too, I don't understand anything anymore, when I get home I have to revise my anatomy to find out exactly where the bladder is located... I'm having big doubts now... natural science classes are a long way off...

She switches back to rosebud, at a certain size when the probe is withdrawn her anus contracts and she ejects me, I'm beginning to understand how her body works and I try to adapt to what Inanna is doing, when she withdraws the probe I do the same I withdraw gently but not totally, then I wait until another probe has penetrated her to start again, and the bigger the probe the tighter her ass closes, I started with 8 fingers to finish with two...

Inanna passes the hegar candles to other probes; she has different sizes and lengths. I blush when I see the size of the one she selects...

She goes in very easily, but takes much longer to come down, it's like she's moving in slow motion compared to the others, it's impressive, I feel the probe through her perineum, it's become hard as concrete, I touch the metal probe through her skin.

I would have loved to fist him at that moment but it's impossible, he's become too closed, he'll have his fist later, but without a probe, at one point I was very afraid I'd hurt him, my finger involuntarily hit the end of the probe. It's the biggest one she's used, I didn't pay attention to the diameter, it was very impressive, the probe completely disappeared, when she uncapped it I saw the silver end of the probe. I asked her if there was any risk of not being able to retrieve it, and she replied "with the small ones, yes, but not with probes of this size". Well, I'm not yet ready to let go of a probe, nor to do it alone.

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All the doubts I had before are gone, and frankly I have no regrets about saying yes. And having attended this session, if I have any advice to give it would be to you gentlemen or to a D/s couple who would like to discover certain practices and in particular this one.

Talk to a professional - it can't be improvised. There's nothing worse than lying and making her think you've already done it. It's true that there's a cost, but preserving your health is the most important thing, and there are real risks of urinary infection caused by an "involuntary" lack of hygiene or injury. What's more, a professional will be able to tell you STOP, you think it's great, you want more, you might want to go too far the first time... It's a bit like when you take up sport and you don't realize that your body might not keep up, the next day you risk paying for it.

And the only reason I recommend going to a pro is because I'm really convinced.

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There are several types of probes

Hegar Candles, simple, slightly curved metal rods of different lengths and diameters, with rounded ends, are medical utensils used by gynecologists to dilate the cervix when it is obstructed, with diameters ranging from 1 to 26mm.

Rosebud, very fine, much longer stems ending in a kind of elongated egg or rosebud. As with the previous ones, the diameter varies, and when you want to introduce several of them, these are the ones most often used.

There are also probes that form an angle at the end, allowing you to go further, right to the entrance of the urethral sphincter.

And many more, from vibrating probes to flexible probes that reach the bladder, I haven't had the chance to use them yet.

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Many thanks to Inanna Justice and S.