From absence to presence
The session begins with the contact of your hands on my skin. Firm and delicate at the same time, they immediately invite me to the letting go and show me that I'm in your space, here and now, where only your presence counts.
You then place me in a hammock, immobilized at the upper body and ankle level, where time becomes suspended. Deprived of sight, I can only imagine your gestures, your gaze. You direct a movement that makes me feel as if I'm on a swing.
It's a poetic, soothing movement, full of affection. And I'm plunged into an almost meditative torpor, face to face with myself, with a stream of thoughts that vanish in the grace of the present moment. I'm barely aware of your absence, which isn't really an absence at all... I can't see you, I can't feel you, but I know you're silently observing the scene, the slightest nuance of my reactions and my breathing.
Everything now seems slower, deeper, and as you approach again, each touch reveals a poignant, unexpected intensity. When your knees discreetly brush my thighs, I shudder. And when your hands energetically grasp my breast, I can't help but surrender to your determination.
At the end of this sequence, I'm no longer aware of the gravity of time passing. A new form of immobilization follows the previous one: this time, my whole body is restricted, as if in suspension. I observe my breath, a serenity that settles in with this vulnerability that reveals itself. And again, I know you're with me, even if I'm disorientated by a changing inner and outer environment. All that remains is the pulse of music, the perception of a space almost outside the world.
Then your body takes hold of mine again, releasing it for an instant to compose a tactile, carnal choreographya ballet of sensations. You handle cords with ease and dexterity, and I soon find myself on my stomach, your foot holding me down. This posture gradually brings me back to a more vivid reality, the contact with the earth having a comforting dimension in its extreme humility.
A few moments later, I'm finally standing in front of you, immersed in your gaze, and you're inviting me to offer my back to your games of impact. I know I can tell you if the intensity seems too much, but the most important thing for me at this moment is sharing. My long-restrained body seems to be gradually warming up, freeing itself from tension, and simply living.
The session ends in a new reclining posture, which represents a transition before leaving your space. The contradiction between brain and body made its mark on me at this point. I don't feel as if several hours have passed, yet I feel deep within me the weight and emotions of experience. It takes me several minutes to take in the complexity of this state of mind, and I know you're always there to welcome and offer the possibility of opening up to yourself and to others.
